While browsing through Haley Sferra's blog a few days ago, a particular "gadget" caught my eye. Apparently Ms. Serensky noticed Haley's gadget as well: a list of quotes from Kurt Cobain. I have heard this name many times before but ironically, I had no idea who the man was. I researched Cobain and found out that he was the lead singer for the band, Nirvana. Ms. Serensky paralleled Cobain to Chief Bromden to help us better understand Bromden's personality. In Cobain's suicide note he wrote about "feeling too much." Although my feelings are not on the same intense level as Bromden and Cobain, I have similar experiences with over-empathizing.
I have always hated hospitals. Not because of the weird smell or the nasty food, but because of the elderly, sick people there. At the age of six my Grandma had a double hip replacement surgery that required her to be hospitalized for a number of months. I loved going to visit my Grandma, but absolutely hated the sites I saw in the hospital. I remember the first time visiting I saw an old lady with tubes up her nose hooked up to millions of different colored wires. I saw nurses feeding old men soup by their bedside. It was a terrible site to see. I felt so awful for these people I would cry so hard my mom couldn't bring me anymore. If I wanted to go I would have to have my mom carry me and put a blanket over my head until we got to my Grandma's room. To this day, I feel a pang of sadness whenever I see a sick, elderly person. I feel strongly affected when I see an old person in pain or alone in a hospital bed. Like Bromden, I feel like I can see deep inside them and I feel the same sadness and lonliness that they are feeling. Unfortunately, I really don’t know how to handle these feelings I have had since I was a kid. Maybe I will try out the fog idea…
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